i feel horrible.

it's the worst thing when you're sick.. you're shivering or sweating half the time, your nose is stuck.. your ears are plugged and your throat is sore.

this sucks.

i can't breathe.
i can't scream.
i can't hear.

and i have this permanent wreching feeling in my stomach.

this all started yesterday when i found myself in school sniffling away. felt extremely light headed and all. and spent most of the day with my heavy head on someone's shoulder.

after school had to do pw. so i stayed with them.
and john samuel's axeing his article for ra..

so that's major panic again...

from 38 pages we're now cut down to 26.

which is miserably thin.
we could excuse it for issue one, mainly because it was issue one.

but for issue 2?

that's just a disgrace.

and now hong yan is in a horrible stressed state.

so the collateral stress + throbbing forehead + inability to hear or breathe..

results in me crawling home and sleeping.

got to sleep and miss french.

and pretty much caught up on my sleep for the week.

it's yus' theory that the accumulative sleep deprivation of 3 hours a night has resulted in my weak immune system.

oh well.

it made me realize how much time i'm wasting with french.
8 hours a week.

i could do so much with 8 more hours a week.

tamil's my 2nd language, and i only have tamil like 2 hours a week.
[and that's when i actually *go* for lessons.]

and i know that i'm gonig to fail both languages anyway.
so why bother?

hmph.

watched the importance of being earnest on channel i.
in between panadol and infused teas and anti histamine tablets and strained teas.
[the joys of having a master chef and a doctor as parents.]

 and then went to bed.

woke up pretty well today.

went back to crescent.
got to meet everyone.

that irritating biatch wasn't invited for speech day cause she didn't get a prize.
ha. serves her right.
made my day so much better knowing that people like her won't show up.

so things went on.
crescent's cool. but becoming less and less personal.

and then the usual walk up to stage. smile. shake guest of honour's hand. walk off stage. tear off blazer. find seat. sit down. 
  
one cool thing about this school is that we're less stuck in the mud than other schools.
where else can the 6 pointer head prefect decide to ditch jc to do biotech in poly?

the average psle score was 246 for this year.

and that's why i owe so much to crescent is that i came in with one of the lowest psle scores, and left "going where no crescentian has gone before... to rjc."

and that was speech day.

reception after that.
talked to teachers.
the bias still remains, though.

they would so much rather look at auspicium melioris aevi than florescat concordia.

but since that's to my advantage, i'm not complaining.

and then the un teacher in charge gave us $150 to buy pizza.

i told them to just steal the reception food then divide the $150 among us.

too bad my juniors aren't as corrupt as i am.

and i was asked to be the goh for the ld farewell ceremony on the 2nd of september.

so may things.

went out after that with jeanne and gwen.

walked around orchard. couldn't decide where to go.

went into mc cafe.
left.

walked into big o opposite nydc at wheelock.

waited to be seated. found a bench. sat down. got menus from the waiter. looked at the price. stacked up the menus. and sneaked out one by one behind the waiter's back.

when he turned around we were gone.

then resorted to sitting at the 3 benches outside. moping about how poor we were.

and took lots of weird pictures.

then xiaoqing, tong wei and sherry showed up.
wasted time with them for a while.

then went to holland v to meet pea.
who was obviously at the dessert place that we go to every sunday afternoon.

who bought the same thing again.

jeanne went to nydc to buy a chessecake.

and then we went to thai express. and took lots of weird photos.

that's what i love about them.
every single time i'm with them i start laughing until i cry.

just that this time it was laughing so much that i tear and then start hacking violently..
and gwen goes.. "oh no.. she's having a heart attack.."
and i just laugh and hack more.

and it's about useless things.
like how we were using my camera to take a video. and since we couldn't really see where we were filming.. all that came on the screen were just inaudible words coming out and our nostrils flaring at the camera.

hilarious.

and then me coughing periodically.

that's one great thing about these kids.
we laugh like crazy about anything.
especially at how unphotogenic we are.

and for once i actually felt better.
i actually felt almost normal.

and then i went home and started feeling sick again.

decided to do maths.
but after getting all the questions wrong. and realizing that i don't even understand the notes, i gave up.

gee called. and i complained to her for a while.

and my piano exam clashes with lysis.

french clashes with lysis.

chem clashes with lysis.

speech day clashed with lysis.

ra will clash with lysis.

oh joy.