we've got a new dining table from da vinci.

it's huge. and ugly.

ok. it's magestic and classic. that's what our agent said.
"and besides, it's da vinci."

just because gee buys ugly, expensive furniture from stylish furniture boutiques..
doesn't mean that we have to live in them.

our sofa's from da vinci too.
mom doesn't let me sit on them, cause i put my feet on the cushions.

it's a sofa. it's *supposed* to be sat on. in the living room. where you just hang out. and slack.

gee pointed out that it's also the family room. and that's why i'm not allowed in there.

..because i'm too uncouth for my posh family.

whatever.

maybe if i just acted a little bit more sane, became anorexic, sat properly and slanted with one leg tucked behind the other, smiled less and articulated more i would fit in.

but where's the fun in that?

i'll just continue being the weird one in the family. the "uncouth" one. the uncultured one. who "just *barely* made it into rjc".

not all of us can be the 2nd runner up for prom queen.
and the class captain.
and the netball captain.
and get 8a1s and 2a2s for os.
and 4as for as.
and get first class honours from cambridge.
and get a high paying job even before we get out of university.

and gee, ever so happily paid for the dining table.
and the rents are damn proud of her.

and so contented that at least one daughter's bringing in the dough.

and then there's dad.

he's finally back from london. for 3 days. and then he's flying off to tokyo or something.

and over the weekend, gee and mom are going to malaysia. so it's just me and him. and it's the fathers' day on sunday.

gee: mom and i are going to malaysia over the weekend.
dad: then i'll be alone on fathers' day.
gee: anjali will be here.
dad: but my daughter won't be here.
me: WHAT ABOUT ME? WHAT AM I?
dad: you.. don't matter.

irritating.

and the worst part was that he probably meant it.
my mom's school's having their graduation on friday.
and then i brought up the fact that he was never there for *any* of my graduations.

and how he wasn't even there when i was born.
he wasn't even in the same country.
or the same continent.

bleah.

if i ever decide to get kids when i get married.. i'm going to get them a really nice dad. real nice. so they won't end up like how i did.