Monday, November 08, 2004

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor.
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before.

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move
Like today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move
Like today never happened before

this song was stuck in my head throughout the whole of the promos.

and then last night.
weirdo dream.
this camera crew kept following me wherever i went.
and it was like some truman show reality show thing where they just followed us around.

and it was one of those laguna beach oc things.
horribly teen soap opera thing.
with like 6 kids.
and i was one of the 6 kids.

and if you're that kind who can't stand those things.
[i am one of them too.. just that there's seth cohen on the oc..]

just don't read on.
cause seriously.. this dream is crap.

and the whole thing was weird.
it wasn't a dream, so much a trailer for an episode of the show.
like i was watching the trailer.. in some metaphysical thing where i wasn't in my own body.. but i was like outside watching the whole thing.

and the whole dream itself was weird.
starts with a kid me and another kid girl and a boy in a sandbox.
and we go "you'll always be my bestest friends. forever.."

or one of those ultra cheesy lines we used to write in autograph books in primary school.

so after that we fast forward some typical high school hallway lined with lockers scene with the girl leaning against the locker stoning..

girl: i've finally earned a new start. maybe things would be better this time around. and this time i've got a friend around.

then i walk by with these 2 other girls.. typical mean girls style and totally walk past her.

girl: well atleast i thought i had a friend around.

and then the scene changes to like this different place with all the jocks talking about whether the team can maintain the gold again this year and all. blah. long story.

so then anyway they go back to the girl who like tries to jump off the building at some party at some rich kid's house. and then flashback to her whole drug addiction thing and then they show her wrist slashing typical angsty thing. and they cut the flashback to see her trying to jump off and the jocks like pull her back. and she fights with them for a while. and then just falls into a heap on the floor.

then for some odd reason i'm the only girl surrounded by the boys and tell them to leave us alone.

and then we talk. for like a super long time. and all that.

and then next day in school the whole mean girls thing. and i leave the mean girls thing to be with my whiny angsty friend. and i go "i feel liberated."

how cliche.

so then blahblah. fastforward to the jocks and their life. and this scrawny guy tries out. and actually he's quite good so he's catapulted into the whole jock circle.

and then this couple always fighting about stuff.

and then this big fight among the jocks. and then the girlfriend in the couple breaks up the fight between her boyfriend and this another guy. and then she screams at the other guy. then i step in and scream at the screaming girlfriend and then the screaming girlfriend screams back. and then my whiny friend screams back at the girlfriend and call her a whore for having an abortion. or something along those lines. then she runs away crying.

and then the whole shebang.

of late night partying.
drunk driving accidents.
irritating parents.
drugs.
getting pregnant.
and all the other problems rich spoilt kids face.

the whole dream was like 3 minutes long.
and like some trailer.
with dare you to move playing in the background.

and then there was like lots of snogging parts.
like everyone was snogging everyone else.

and then there's the time when my whiny friend and i are sitting somewhere. then the sandbox boy comes back. and my whiny friend goes on and on about him. and then he shows up. and she like smiles and goes up to him. and he ignores her and walks straight towards me and the rest happened.

and my whiny friend gets horribly jealous.

eurgh. gross.

it's more candy coated than mandymoore, with more poser angst than avril.

like some dawson's creek meets 90210.

yuck.

but the good thing about being rich and on tv is that i had really nice clothes and super good hair. with no frizz. absolutely no frizz. and i like lost 3948723957239572 pounds.